doctors suck

i had 2 go home early from school for sleeping

then i had 2 be in the doctors for 3 hours and 30 mins

and today sucks

i still have a councelers apointment

so yea...

OMG

my butt hurts

i jumped out of a car yesterday

and got a huge bruse

but was worth it

today was cool i guess

didnt do anything

but no school

ahhhhhhhh pain

when i went 2 bed

i lay my head down and closed my eyes

with nothing around me i heard music

surprised i opened my eyes 2 see where it had come from

but there was nothing

so i close my eyes again and there is the music

i let it take me into a sleep

i wake up in cold sweat screaming and growling

i dont even know why

but this has been another nightmare

for the past 3 days its been nightmares

and then today i had 2 live one of them

my mind is going insane

today was ok i guess but thats not the point

i have an idea

and will be making in the summer...

THE EMO IPOD!!!!

omg

today

sucked

so bad

my dad found me talking 2 cari and started yelling at me even though i explained my reasons 2 him and they were damn good reasons 2 but he just yells and yells.  i dont know if he will ever understand.  but i know i dont want 2 be like him because hes can be such a jerk even 2 good reason.

then no one was on in the morning so i was all alone and bored so i painted

omg i did so much painting 2day

however i spilt paint all over one of my models that took me 5 hours 2 paint...

and then something is wrong with me

i couldnt stop eating

i have read in on depressions and i have alot of the things people have when they are depressed like an increase of eating

i hope 2 god that it doesnt become an eating disorder

but i have disided i wont eat for a few days

and then cari wasnt on at all

this is a very depressing and agravating day

so today blows

my weekend days were horrible and my nights were good

i hated today so much and then i learned that my school is threataning to keep me in the 9th grade

i want 2 brake them cause they are so stupid

i am getting good grades so why does it matter that i sleep in class

so that only made my day worse

this is the kinda day where i wish i was away or dead........